GOH M** L***
feel so dwn when other call my real name.
cosz ii dun like my real name! II REALLY REALLY REALLY DUN LIKE MY REAL NAME!
if ii cann change the name ii confirm will agree without thinking. ii know this may b bad cosz tis is a given name fer my parents... but this is also a scar given by others ppl.
some other may not know wht is the bak of the story cosz ii dun wish to repeat and repeat it again and again, reminding mii again and again.
tt person have die in this world jus let it be. stop calling & calling is irriating!
ii try my best to ferget everything. ii try my best to accp those ppl who did all those thing to mii in the pass. ii try my best to go out wif them but it seem there still no improvement. sometime ii'm wondering y everytime is mii? y the person is mii? do ii reali look so ugly or irriating? and thur this thing they let mii know one thing. eu have to be pretti den eu will be like by the class. if eu are not pretti den F off.
everytime ppl call my real name ii will oways feel those pain feel like crying. ii reali dun wish tis thing happen to mii... IT MAKE MII HATE MYSELF! will they feel sorry wht they have done to mii? a perfect scar tt won't clear it FEREVER!.
after she is annouce death frm mii she have change to a different person. a person without a soul... when she try to stand up again and start frm the beinning agian she name herself another name another person, trying to mak herself look more pretti hoping everything will be fine. but ppl still like to call her the name. by calling the name is the same as putting salt on the scar do eu know how painful is this???
SO WHEN II SAY STOP CALLING MY REAL NAME. DO STOP. IS NOT FUN.
every year ii must face those thing. teacher marking student attentence, nurse calling mii to go in and cc doctor.... whenn cann ii change my name??? y when ever ii wanna ask parent to change my name ii was oways been reject?
II REALLI REALLI REALLI WANNA CHANGE MY NAME.
a post ii post during those hurtful yr. [ tis is in other blog]. ii change my blog when ii was "reborn"
" Thursday, April 6th, 2006
do anione know of han sue cao?
han sue cao is a kind of grass which it will protect itslef no matter wht
i’m just a normal gal (han sue cao gal who only wan to protect herslef) who no one understand mi so is my parent….they always say they undertsand mi but actually is nope….in class i will always kanna bully by frendz when ever i got bully i will never let my parent know cause when i tell them the first thing they will say is i wrong..got wht different if i don say anithing and keep my mouth shut?
my parent will just say pretent they are a wall….well i really don understand where my parent don understand their own children than wht for to have a children at home? foolish man! well i also don hate my parent i just got alot of quesion mark at my head!
why classmate keep making mi, i didn even do anithing to them!
(i hate tt, i will make mi more n more hating school)
why i’m in this world?
(i should be at somewhere else)
why can’t i be a gal who no one care about/love?
( like this i will feel more better)
why when ever i got bully i only know how to smile?
(i’m tired liao…one day i’m going to lost my smile)
why when ever i got bully i will alway cry at night when i’m going to turn off?
(can’t i cry at the morning/afternoon/evening? but night? )
why i always wan those ppl around mi to be happy plus those who bully mi?
(if they bully mi were make them happy i don mind)
why can’t anione understand mi?
(feel so lonely at everywhere)
this year is special i don wish to go to school! i don wish to see my frendz ! i don wish to see my classmate!
last year in school guess every gal wish this tme will pass slowly cause they will miss each other alot but i don wish to i just wish everyone can forget about mi, i’m dead DEAD…who de xin shi le xin tao ting le…..in the whole world there no more this gal call jessica goh mei lian!ta zai jin tian e shi le! she is dead today at 6.38 pm6/4/2006...."
SHE IS NOW KNOWN AS JESSICA GOH JIE EN.
PLS RESPECT HER NAME.
&& II BELIEVE SHE WILL SHINE LIKE A STAR ONE DAY!
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