我心寒！我心痛！我不明白！
我说过天底下没有一个母亲不爱自己的孩子， 一样的 天底下没有孩子不爱自己的父母。
我很爱他们！可是为何她感觉不到？一次又一次的伤到我的心？

actually today shuld be a happy day fer us.
is a outing to malaysia fer our family wif grace, she bring us to enjoy the nice curry fish head. have already told them ii will be on duty frm 0700-1200 hours.

well ii didn really have a good slpt. ii slp at morning 0400 && wake up at 0700. ii didn complain tt ii'm tired as ii know my family is waiting fer tis day to come.. rushed bak home after work. changed and got prepared. leave house at 1300 hours ii guess.

took bus to malaysia. as eu know the distance, shall not mention on those procedure. skip skip skip.

OKAY. rch malaysia 1st thing heading to tt curry fish head store.
they told us no more curry fish head and ii was blame cosz i'm working O.o?

HELLOX! WHT IS TIS?
ii work fer money! dun eu understand ii nid to save money fer my future!
eu stop giving mii monthly allowance cosz ii got the scholarship sponsor. dun eu think tt $300 will spend finish?
- everyday in sch $5++ (1 month how much ii spend?)
- transportation fees?
- project work fees?
- outside active (dance.)
so does tt mean my $300 always there? never end spending?

dun eu ferget ii still own eu $2000 cosz of driving!
if ii dun save and kip working now. when will ii return eu ur money??
ii have count ahead.
ii graduate at 2012 apr and continue in poly (if possible) which will take mii another 3 yrs. part-time jobs dun let mii earn much!

will be out to social1y to work on 25 yrs old.
do eu think my 1st full ime job will get a pay of $2000? NO!
and ii know tt eu will come after mii fer ur monthly allowance + tt $2000!
so when cann ii have my 1st car?

ARRRRGGGGG.
sometime ask eu fer extra money eu will start yelling at mii! kip saying tt $300! II HATE THIS! now holidays ii kip working have eu ever ask am ii tired? II KNOW EU WILL REPLY MII BAK "II ALSO WORKING. II ALSO VERY TIRED."

sometime ii dun understand y ii treat eu so good, so love eu yet eu tell mii, ii'm not? in ur eyes there only my younger brother. wht abut mii??

do eu know tt who is the one kip reminding them mother's day is coming?
do eu know tt who is the one planning fer eu everything?
do eu know tt who is the one who look fer tt perfect and special present?

so wht did eu cc?
eu tell mii ii'm not good to eu. ii'm not a good daughter?
EU HURT MII DEEPLY!

EVERYTIME II TEARS AFTER QUARREL WIF EU DUE TO MONEY PROBLEM!
II HATE MONEY! II REALLY HATE TT!
MONEY CANN'T BUY EVEYTHINGS!
YES. EU WILL SAY SORRY TO MII BUT WHT FER?
II DUN WAN UR SORRY. II WAN EU TO UNDERSTAND!
EVERYTIMES QUARREL WIF EU IS THE SAME OLD MATTER! SAME OLD SORRY! WHT FER?

if ii dun start my saving now. wht will happen if ii nid money on my 25 yrs old? will eu guve mii or will eu start yelling at mii again?
sometimes ii really think like ii shuld stop studying after ii grad. start searching fer a full-time job. the more eu stress mii wif money matters the more ii have this mindset!

&& do eu know tt poly expense is much more higher?

I REALLY VERY TIRED.... II NID A BREAK!
TEARS FLOWING NON-STOP....
HEARTING BLEEDING NON-STOP...

bcosz today the whole journey to malaysia is to eat onli and come bak.
eu quarrel wif mii and dad.
mii and dad already try to control our tempter,
my dad is the best guy ii every cc in the world.
our character is almost the same more understanding and easy to communicate.
when facing stubborn mami all we cann do is diam diam but sometime ii really cann't control and yell bak.

ii know is bak to yell bak but.... sigh?
wht can ii do?